Headed Upstream

Start of the war

I was only just four

But it's just a divorce right?

No, not when you're at the core

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I don't care if you fight

Just leave me out of it alright?

Don't want to be at the center

I know I'll be crying tonight

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Daddy's gone now and I can't count on you

I try to lean on your shoulder

You yawn and head out the room

Try to lay hands on your new fellow but he's gone out on you

Always too blind to realize that I'm calling on you

And we both cry on but there's no changing you

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The love you took away from us comes and saves me now and then

I'm sorry, it isn't enough daddy

I'm enslaved to the pain

Through it all, you never saw me misbehave

I kept it all together and you know I forgave

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By sixteen, I thought you'd have enough of me

There was a being inside of you

Let's call me Irene

She came into the scene and became the queen

All while I slept in class and overdose in caffeine

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Too much responsibility

I didn't have the ability

Becoming a mother to my "sister" did not help me learning ability

I should have never had to pay for your irresponsibility

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I beamed as I walked out the door once of age

My dreams were as intact as the very first day

You thought you had torn me, that's how it seemed

Sorry to break it to you, I'm headed upstream

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I am a dreamer

I'm flying up high

Life's never been sweeter

Don't let your dreams die