HEALING

I'm In Need of some SPIRITUAL Healing Doubt whether my actions Currently are the REAL ME Uncommon for me, I'm so Accustomed to Bottling Up all my feelings Not sure if I'm doing the RIGHT THING Even though it feels as if its the right thing Repetitive Beat plays own my mental So out of my mind it almost feels like is a RENTAL So much confliction and Anquish Devil Whispering in my Ear Urges of Staining Shit Might just be to real to raw for this EVERYDAY COPESTHETIC SHIT Feel so ALONE, Constant confliction amongst my relationships Write or wrong, be with me regardless what I hope for Momma say, "You got a GOD Complex", simply put in words I feel I can't decide own what the melody I have night terrors, no nightmares, Just my most consious, Unconscious Beliefs Regardless of spelling and grammar I beat the odds Stood TALL and overcame the battle of "THE SLAMMER" FOOTSTEPS N THE SAND WAS NEVER LED BY EXAMPLE OWN HOW TO BE A TRUE MAN Hope'N somebody TRUELY HEAR ME Praise GOD ALMIGHTY I REALIZE IM FORMED N HIS IMAGE AND LIKENESS, THIS I BELIEVE guess third party and extras enter human beings Come skim over and quickly be led to believe That I am an Emotional Soul Beloved Amongst The Brethren, Messenger Of GOD, pure to a high extent & At the same time "ARE WE NOT EQUALY GULLABLE"? they say I could repent for MY SIN But still at the end of the day I still question it Am I wrong or simply, NATURALLY HUMAN EVEN IF COMING TO TO TERMS WITH N REALIZING EVE'S ROLE N BEING MANS NATURAL BORN SIN Love is blinding, it's challenging Truest question to Commit I swear at times I feel I NOR THE MOST HIS, WILL EVER COME TO UNDERSTAND IT!! But if so then what am I to believe All these EMOTIONS, FELLINGS GUT/MENTALLY SO UNDECIDED WHO & WHERE CAN I TURN TO TO SUM IT ALL UP TO ONE CONCLUSION AND STAND ON IT FIRMLY BELIEVE, BLIND FAITH, AND EVERY GOD WILLING GOD GIVEN MOMENT BEGING AND FOREVER END, NEVER END, BUT HOLD MY CHIN N THE AIR AND PRESENT, THROUGH VIBE ENERGY THROUGH COMMON SENSE WHEN WILL I ULTIMATELY REACH THAT POINT, OR THAT LEVEL, GETTING TO THE POINT NOT BEING IMPATIENT BUT SO READY TO ("HIT") THE NEXT LEVEL OF TURNING THIS KNOWLEDGE, INTO SOME WISDOM SHIT WORDS CAN NEVER SUM IT ALL UP FEEL IAM just SUPER EAGER/, Somewhat Impatient just to simply acknowledge IT!! ") WHICH IS the fact I feel so prepared Yet, if I TRUELY, &SPIRITUALLY AM FULLY, WHY IS IT I/WE GO THROUGH SO MUCH, PERSOSTANT, AND ALL TO OFTEN PERIODS OF UNCONTROLLABLE TEST!! He'll May just be N my mental As Far As I SEE N BELIEVE IT AT TIMES I FEEL SO UNCERTAIN OF EACH N EVERYTHING TO THE POINT I MIS-PERCIEVE "IT" Common Sense may not be so Common But I'm sure I'm not the only one, "HUMAN", that believes it to be INFINANTELY MORE COMPLEX To the point HONEST TO THE MOST HIGH "I" MYSELF am invigorated to Challenge everything Only because of the simple fact that "I" WAS NOT ONLY PUT HER FOR THIS REASON OR SO PRIVY AND, ("IN-TUNED"), WITH REALIZING THROUGH THE POWER OF CHOSE GIVEN FROM YOU, GOD, THE ONE N ONLY IS THE SIMPLY REASON WHY If I am so much like you How can I be wrong IN ANY WAY And even though IT BEGINS, IT US GIVEN THROUGH YOUR GRACE, AND ONLY SJOULD YOU CHOOSE IT WHEN YOU DO, IT ALL, INDIVIUALLY, EVENTUALLY, COMES TO A MINUTE-END LIFE BEING EVERLASTING, BEING A BORN INTO SIN GIVEN THE LOWER OF CHOSE IM ALLOWED TO VENT/FURTHER EXTEND, KNOWLEDGE TO YOU O LORD N DO WITH IT, WHAT YOU WISH Whatever you may throw at us, on some street shit Ain't nothing we can't handle, is just a question of who TRUELY the your, GRACE, AND N BLIND FAITH, CHOOSES TO BELIEVE N IT... NOT SURE, MAYBE I AM THROUGH BIOLOGICAL GENES LONG WINDED, 🤣😇💯 BUT TBH KEEPN IT HUMBLE AS I CAN, JUST AS MUCH AS YOU MAY FEEL, I AM ALSO DISAPPOINTED No Pun Intended I'm JS, Speaking my my, letting these words I'm typing actually cement With or without a Comment or opinion positive or negative, simply just SET N, AND BURY DEEP AMONGST YOU THOUGHTS, PRAY MY FAMILY IS SAFE AND PROTECTECTED N THE TIMES I MAY FALL SHORT I AM HURT, IN NEED OF HEALING ALLOW ME TO OPEN UP MY EARS EAGER TO TURN THIS KNOWLEDGE TO WISDOM AND I PRAY THAT YOU HEAR 🙏😇🤔?? -MICAHKING00