In a heart beat

You think someone would be happy to find out the person they have liked... liked them back. You'd think they would be one of the happiest people in the world... that's not always the case... at least not in my case... when you find out someone. NO they the reason your very heart beats the reason you are happy to go outside of the comfort of your home just to be in the warm embrace of their touch just to see them the smile... they the center of your whole universe what your very world rotates around... you'd think because they might have the slightest little bit in them that is the same as you the littlest bit of hope. When they tell you they feel the "same" way... you feel like they really don't.... they end up becoming the reason you don't want to go to school the reason you are hiding the fact you are crying with a laugh or the littlest bit of unhappiness behind a smile... just to see the fact that they really don't feel the same way... the fact that they walk with someone that also happens to like them and they know it you see the way they look at each other... how the littlest sliver of hope that you felt was yours slips through your fingers as you watch and see as they stare into each other... or the way he looks at her the way he never looked at you... at me... that little bit of happiness in you fades to dust... and your final seconds have reached and you are ready to explode...