Close all the doors to the outside
Never let anyone in
Trap all the pain inside
Hold it there, take it to my grave.
Seal my lips, don't let the words escape
Screaming on the inside
But nobody hears a sound
Locked up with my own demons.
My words fight for a way out of my mouth
My heart thumps against my chest
Trying to escape the internal terror
I can run as far as I will, but I'll never outrun myself.
Silent waves of tears that will never fall
Break against my heart
Screams that will never make it past my lips
Boil up in my throat, choking me.
There is a storm raging inside me
But I'm the only one who feels it
The smile that plays across my lips
Fools all on the outside.
Trying to get out of my own body
Trying to shut down my thoughts
Wanting to be somebody I'm not
Faking my way through life.
Hoping against hope that things will get better
Drifting in and out of reality
Standing in a world that exists only to me
Trying to make it with my heart in a bottle.