heart break

Love of God Or lemme say God's love That has peace like that of dove I've tried my best to be with you But it's somethin I couldn't see through In tears I'm writing dz poem Though its only meant for a rare gem Love hurts Or should I say Crush cuts Yeah yeah. ..it cuts the heart Crush could kill... Even when u aren't ill He has made me suffer That I don't have any gut to mutter Yeah. To mutter "I love you" Though it has been a pleasure meeting you But I desire much more than being a friend May be I'm not in dat trend I can't believe I could be close to my crush's crush Its like oooouch! I can't even figure out how we became so close My dear crush's crush, U are also a darling ... Though I still had crush on him But I never for once hated you cos of him It was now like two friends were contesting for a dude Which is actually true And before I could even say Jack I could no longer see my back Then we were having a group discussion Which later resulted to a heart destruction Adeola asked her, "how is ur boyfriend?" I wished that was the end Then it blah blah blah I was like omg argh They already started dating? And I'm here waiting. .. But why did he make me wait this long? He could have told me long ago I hid my tears till I got to my room It was like a vacuum I laid in my bed and took a crying position Without any option I didn't check the time I started crying but I know I stopped 2am When I made up ma mind The one that is invisible to only d blind I'm gon stop buzzing him I'm goin to stop talking to him I'm gon stop thinking bou him I'm gon stop everything that concerns him Yeah...tho I'd find it difficult But its really a short cut A short cut to end my heart break . Oh Lord, never mind how stupid this prayer is Lemme get over this feelings with ease Though I am not going to say i Wouldn't miss you Because i’d be lying I am not going to say i wouldn't need you because inside i am dying But what can I do when u av never understood me Though I know I didn't tell u my mind But of what difference would it have made Fuck it! Crush is the fastest way to grind Could grind like flake i’ve waited for something that will never come true And that something was to believe in me and you i know i showed it many times but you never really cared Dont tell me to chill out boy i am not scared i gave you time, you gave me pain I don’t regret noting because you were a mistake Yeah I mistook u for someone I could be with His friends they all told me “don't stress ursef,u are not good enough for him” i knew it from the start and still i played along i played his games as he broke my heart Every strike was another missing piece Then when I show my anger on whatsapp,he'd start. "Look, ur my first female friend in osun state. " For God sake, he said he cares ? He thinks am stupid? He never bothered to even call me and yet he tells me i am sorry? I did what was right He broke ma heart because he neverB cared We’ve always shared The happy memories in my head and those Funny times we had