Heart First

I'm a guardian of my soul.

I will never leave my wallls vulnerable

However, you came in silent

Unexpected.

I never saw it coming

You wallked through me

and into my heart

I love you and I hate you 

I don't know how it's possible

I'm at war with myself

My mind protecting my heart

And my heart a careless mess that wants to dive into the moments

I want to dive in

Skeptical yet ready

For you I would risk the pain

Blindfold me and let let me fall

Only fools fall in love 

However I fell for you

I'm still falling you

I was never good for myself 

Never good for my health

I make the worst decisions

But they make life worth living

You don't even have to meet me halfway

Cause my hearts always been at your front gates

Standing in the rain

Just waiting to once again feel the presence of your lips

Being pushed upon them

My mind is in the background

Faded and silenced

I'm a guardian of my soul

Who left me in charge?

I was never good for myself.