Heart & Mind

I wish I could change my mindset and my heart..

My heart is cold and dying.. caring so much but never really trying to prove it.

Mind so determined to prove someone wrong... and my self as right.

Heart pushing people away so pain would never be endured..

Mind so damn stubborn that I over analyze every word.. maybe one day I might not even believe myself..

Heart so set on hope and love.. 

Yet my mind so pessimistic I can't truly believe love is real..

Heart so empty but still so full of life and love.

Mind so fucked up I sometimes forget to breath..

Or is that on purpose..

Heart so sad I cry myself to sleep

Maybe I'm crazy.. Or I'm just a bit to mature...

I can't fall in love like most.. I can't plan out my fairy tale..

I sit and ponder life and death.. and when I feel alone.. That's another story.. 

I want to change me. But my mind won't budge and my heart isn't trying to feel anything..