The Heart & Mind

The heart is weak
The mind is broken
The will to live, the will to strive,
They are ridiculously low.
The mind wishes the same,
Yet the breathe has yet to end.
My time has not come.
It has begun.
The heart cries of pain, the heart cries to stop beating.
The heart is tired of emotions.
The mind is tortuous, it numbs occasionally.
Stuck in a deep sadness, there is no want of this world.
Stuck in a deep pain, the humans are slowly destroying me entirely.
The torture of life, the torture of pain,
There is no remorse.
A cry needed a lot but rarely comes.
Help my soul to help my mind.
No more corruption for my heart or mind.
Help me be myself again.
The emotional girl before the people who caused me to sadden.
The girl who never laughed at death, the girl who treated everyone the best.
Help me find her, she's close to gone but deep inside remains the essence.
Very small and smothered by depression, very small and choking from deep anger, very small and hoping for a ressurection.
Me before her, before her permanent pain.
Me before the attempt, me before confrontation.
Me before her promises, me before her lies.
Help me find peace in this lonely life.
Help me to find a will to live in happiness instead of wish for a quick death while being a pessimist.
Help me to open my heart instead of guarding it heavy, give me reasons for an unlocked mind.
My heart and mind need peace not paranoia, not sadness,not numbness.
My soul needs love and peace.
Lord help me find it.