The Heart wants what it wants.

People know who my first love was & is

I say was because I had him at one point in my life

I say is because he is still in my heart

& No one can replace him

They say that “to move on & you can do better, forget about him.”

But how do you expect someone to move so quickly or asap from a person who was there for you?

How do you let the one you love walk out of your life like nothing & pretend like it doesn’t affect you?

How am I going to accept the fact that one day he might get a new shorty & show her off, while I’m over here crying for him & missing him

But he only does that because he knows you miss him

So he wants you to go chase him and grab his attention

You know deep down inside you will because you want him back so badly

Then at the end of the day you start thinking “ why do I always gotta go for him? How come he can’t come chase me one day?”

That’s why you think & are the way you are

You change your mind and decide to find a way to try to make him go & chase you

He notices something isn’t right

Which leads him to thinking how you did so much for him & were there when he fucked up

But why did you stay with him still?

Because you were the only female that gave two dam fucks about him

Then he comes up with the excuse saying “ but shorty messed up too”

Yea she did mess up, but she tried to apologize and show you

You didn’t like the way she did it, so you made her into your bitch

That’s why she don’t wanna get back with you at the same time

She said “Hold up, If you really love someone like you say you do, you don’t let nothing tear you guys apart.”

Which makes her think twice if it was true love or not…

To prove her love to him she decided to first fix herself up & to start talking to him as a friend again

Now she realizes that this nigga still does care about her

Cause if he didn’t he wouldn’t be wasting his time still talking to her

The thing about him is that he don’t like to admit things, so like you gotta try to find a way for him to tell you something

Here’s the thing, she can’t tell her girls because they gunna be like “you wanna go through the same old bullshit again or what?”

Which makes her learn the hard way of what she gotta do

“The heart wants what it wants, you can’t lie to it nor yourself. You can’t force it to change it’s mind. No matter how good or bad the situation might be.”

& that’s the fucked up thing about love because if you wanna forget about someone , you just gotta let it “go by itself”

That’s why when you have someone be great full to have them and cherish them

Take advantage in a good way to make them smile and feel loved by the one they love

Don’t fuck up because it’s hard to find someone out here like that special person

Cause when you do

That person will walk out of your life and never want to do anything with you anymore

And someone better will come into there life & make it 10x better

So think twice before you make the decision

Cause at the end of the day

“The heart wants what it wants”