Heartbreak

My heart's distraught from the things I've said My memory is my worst enemy when I'm laying in bed All I have are memories and thoughts of us Things that was to things that could be They asked me my serious relationship I hide the shame in my face cause it turned to shit I told you I'm sorry for the things I said But sorry just isn't enough to fix what I did Bout to leave soon so i guess I'm erased From your mind and your phone Like I was never in this place Real feelings I never really had I was always the one being chased at But with us we're chasing each other I hope you forgive me before I leave We should make amends at least for the future I promise to keep my thoughts in my book And if I'm famous I won't think twice bout you Never knew what i was thinking when i talked to her Even though you told me not to I still said a word Every time I think of how mad you are The pain gets more and more severe in my heart in my heart Don't want to cry but I'll lie and say i wont Laying on these sheets thinking of how our love started neat But your love i mistreat And for the first my feeling went deep Don't blame you if you hate me cause I would too I don't know where we stand now But if it's over I'm not gonna get over you Cause to be honest you would be my first heartbreak