Heartbreak on my mind

I want to have him in my arms. I want him to say he loves me. How can I bear to see him with some other girl? How could he bear to see me with another guy? I don’t think it’s just infatuation. I know its love. I want him to see it too. I want him to feel my way and see it all through my eyes. I want him to see how beautiful he is in my mind, I want him to know how much I care for him. I need him to know why I loved him. And why he means so much to me. How can I think past all this? I want him to see the way I feel. I feel like my heart was ripped from my chest, Then someone poured salt and rubbing alcohol mixed on my chest. I feel like I can’t possibly cry anymore, But look, here comes another tear. I wish upon a star again, But what good will that do? Should I give in to blind faith? Is that what I’ve come to? I don’t want to give in to something I can’t believe in. But what other choice do I have?