Hearts Response

I cannot conceive your jealousy, like you, is all I yearn to be. Feeling my way around as I walk blindly. My only comfort is knowing that youre here with me. I have an unsought destiny to be fulfilled by another entity. I will never be able to be complete without a connection with another being. Can you fathom not being able to exist alone, not even having the luxury of independence a dyer need for commitment. Yes I have my reasons that are beyond my decisions. This life of mine is relentless. The sun shines by its own will with the moon so dependent. How nothing can exist without an opposite, how I cant resist to be a composite. How dare you envy me, I never asked for this. I yearn to be free but was cursed to attract relationships. Unwillingly wielding feelings as if they were weapons for my survival, to be know as vital , you view me as idle , while you're my idol. You are intelligence. You are structure , you are relevant. I am vulnerable and naïve. Forced to believe. Used and deceived. Cursed with a disease to please and fulfill needs. So much left on me. Unwanted responsibility. I just long to be free , or at least have the option to be able to endure detach , without relapse, or latch to the havoc of another's matter. I can't help to desire company and see the golden rays thru the debris. Can't help to see a broken canvas was once a masterpiece , and that the glass is half full of catastrophe , yet their asking me, me? What do I know? I cannot see. I can only feel I can only chase I can only want for anything. I need a companion to keep me sane to keep me valuable and maintained. So that I'm useful and can be fruitful , to be viewed as suitable and functional. You understand me unknowingly for I do not speak. Yet you voice my opinions in speech. You say hello to the ones I meet. And pour me out into souls of the meek, weak, and the sweet. The "reasons" you speak of , are instinct. I am the last standing purity. That is why the defiled restrain me. They suppress and confine me into depths that even with no windows are blinding. Binding me deep within where no one will ever find me. But everything has its timing. They don't all idolize me. Some loathe me with a passion undefining. They cant take the fact that love is so undying. And inevitable. So unpleasurable , not even then can my purpose be blocked. I seep through the cracks and swim to the docks waiting to be caught. Open as a trap waiting for someone to fall into the depths so I can make us one. You understand perfectly you. You plan it all. I'm here longing , going to far, expanding & contracting earning my title I am the heart. I yearn for the light In the dark. For rain In the spring , to belong to be happy to be content. To be like you with your options. I wish to be from the crave of attachment.