Heleena and Anxiety Take on 2016!

Heleena and Anxiety Take on 2016!                                                  

 

December 31st, 2015.

Time goes fast, almost too fast.

A new year a new me.

New Years Resolutions:  Eat healthy and stop procrastinating.

Wait, something is stopping me…

Oh yeah, my demons.

Add this to the Resolutions list:

MAKE YOUR DEMONS LEAVE YOU ALONE!

                                                                    Seems legit.

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Happy New Years!

2016 is finally here.

This is going to be a great year.

January.

School starts back and my stress levels are already increasing.

How does that even happen?

I’m pretty sure the whole new year new me plan failed.

I’m in school with a bag full of junk, fruit is no where to be found.

 God hopefully February is better.

February.

New teachers and new classes.

Hey. This isn’t so bad. I’m in a better place than I was before.

Maybe I could resume with making a better me.

Start eating healthy and get back on the scholar grind.

March.

Okay. This isn’t working.

I have two projects due tomorrow. My partners did nothing and I’m stuck with it.

I have three test tomorrow and I didn’t study. God.

PUT THE PHONE DOWN. STOP PROCRASTINATING!

Mom stop screaming at me you aren’t helping.

No. No. No. NO NO NO NO NO NO.

Go back to the dark hole you came from anxiety.

April.

Did you even change?

You are the total opposite of Spring.

Cold. Just cold.

Did you finish your homework?

Damn it, oh well I’ll live.

Marking period ends today and I don’t even care.

I mean I do but…

Do I really?

Whatever.

May.

April Showers bring May flowers.

Shut up and do your work.

Don’t forget you have a presentation next period.

Just calm down and read.

DO.

NOT.

START.

PANICKING.

Didn’t I say not to panic.

Heleena what will I do with you?

At least school ends next month.

June.

Regents month.

You’ll do fine.

Living Environment is a given.

Just focus on geometry.

Wait, what is this?

We never learned this.

Doesn’t this determine my future?

Who is the education system to tell me that I am not smart because I don’t know how to construct an angle?

Whatever.

If I happen to fail, I can take it over.

Wait, my future employers will see this, my future college, MY FUTURE IS ...

Gone.

Because of me not studying.

This is all your fault nobody to blame.

June 26th, 2016.

HOLY!

A 90 ON THE LIVING REGENT AND A…

69 on the geometry.

Well I passed.

Hey, I didn’t freak out.

I actually beat anxiety.

Heleena:1.

Anxiety:99.

July.

Ah.

Summer vacation.

Finally, I can relax.

Oh, yeah…

AP SUMMER ASSIGNMENT. HOW FUN!

I’ll worry about that later.

Time to get away from New York.

A plane ride to Trinidad.

Just

5

Hours

On

A

Plane.

What could happen?

We could land safely.

Or you know,

We could crash

End up in the ocean

Oh I don’t know

WE COULD DIE?!
Oh wow, look anxiety how nice of you to arrive.

I didn’t miss you at all.

Get out of my head.

Leave me alone.

July 25th, 2016.

Hey, my birthday is here!

One year older,

One year closer to college

One year closer to being a forensic pathologist

One year closer to dea…

No.

Not today, For the love of Christ, not today.

Delete the bad thoughts and enjoy the birthday.

Wait, I did it again.

Didn’t let the anxiety take over

Heleena:2

Anxiety:99.

Not bad Heleena

Not bad at all.

August.

All right.

So, you have hyperpigmentation.

Okay, you don’t have perfect skin.

Nobody will notice.

They won’t stare at the dark patches on your legs.

Or judge you in those shorts and call your legs ugly.

Maybe you should stay in today.

No, Heleena shut up.

I look great despite what people think.

Oh My God.

I’m doing it.

I’M DEFEATING MY DEMONS.

TAKE THAT ANXIETY.

September.

Sophomore Year.

School.

Okay, new teachers.

I have to introduce myself.

Do Not Stutter.

Of course, the old I-I I-I took over.

Heleena:2

Anxiety:100.

Alright, you got over the classes.

Now choose your extracurricular.

Okay. You want to join volleyball.

Get the permission slip signed and go ask the teacher what you have to do.

DON’T CHOKE UP.

You know this isn’t working.

How can you want to play in front of a crowd but not talk to the woman who will eventually become your coach?

Oh, the cheerleaders look nice.

Cute uniforms.

Wait, I can dance maybe I’ll be good at cheer.

Hold on just a second.

I had the coach as my aerobics teacher.

I’ll just join cheer,

Just ask her for the permission slip and I’ll be on my way.

WAIT!

So, you don’t want to play a sport but you want to cheer?[HA1]

For some boys who can’t even play football?

Yikes.

October.

Why is it still warm?

Football season is going good though.

Well, for the cheerleaders.

I don’t know how I do it.

I can cheer with no problem but to present I melt.

Hm. Crazy.

But this is good.

We’re making progress.

Praise God.

November.

I actually did it.

I lost 5 pounds.

I ate salad and grains and I actually accomplished a goal.

No anxiety attacks, so far.

Wait, never mind.

It’s here…

After a few weeks…

You just had to come back…

OH AND ON THE DAY I HAPPEN TO HAVE

THREE

IMPORTANT

MIDTERMS.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Just ruin my day with your panic attacks why don’t you?

Hey Anxiety,

I

HATE

YOU.

December.

Ah finally it’s cold.

Heleena you’ve come a long way.

The “demons” are keeping their distance.

You are in shape and may I say very healthy.

But, you didn’t stop procrastinating…

Oh well, I can’t stop and I most likely won’t stop.

I’m proud of you.

You became a better you.

Congratulations!

December 31st, 2016.

Next year’s New Years Resolutions:

Learn to not care about what people think

Stay focused

And Stop having mini conversations with your anxiety…

She’s just rude and disrespectful.

                                                     Just be yourself this year

                                       The only thing that could stop you is nothing.

Heleena,

You

Got

This.

 

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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