Hell of a life

Its been a long ass child hood,

my dads gone and i've lost all hope

people love me until they realize what i am,

then love turns into hate,

i dont know how to cope,

im always asking for help but no one responds!

gotta step back and ask myself whats going on,

all this bad stuff keeps happening,

i feel alone, 

because my family dont even want me,

i sit here and these feelings just kill,

i feel like i wanna OD again

so i grab some pills,

i tell myself this is how its gotta be.