Help me

Help me because I can't help myself

I don't know everything and yes I know I think I do

Im sorry for the things I do

Everybody else's emotions put on a shelf

Why can't I change?  What's wrong with me?

Why am I not the daughter they want me to be?

Am I just stupid? Or am I crazy?

Either way I don't know how to save me

Sitting here wishing I was dead

Becuase all the bad things are running in my head

I know wrong from right but doing right is always a fight

I wanna be normal cause normal is right

I hope my actions make them proud

Because I dont want to be to loud

My actions will speak louder than the words of a liar

Everything I do will be underfire

Sorry is not enough and no words can be

My actions have to show it and I know it wont be easy

And I know you wouldn't believe me if I said I was trying

Cause everything I say is always "lying"

Help me be better, for my family is now plauged with stress 

Help me put this depressed teenage me to rest