here for you

i am internally sad.

no one can hear my inner thoughts.

they all think that just because im full of laughter and carry a smile that can light up New York.

but im not.

i am an unwinding string os self-hate.

if only i had someone to talk to.

wait!no one will listen.

they will all think i'm crazy.

i'm not crazy..... i know i'm not.

i need a friend, or at least some one to help ease the pain.

FRIEND!

i am here for you!

i know your in pain.... i want to help.

talk to me! i know your not crazy.

dying wont take away the pain.

it will only increase it.

it will cause heart break to your loved ones.

they will wallow in self-hatred.

thinking day in and day out on how they should have saved you.

if you cannot live for yourself, live for me.

someone who deeply loves you and needs you in their life.

live for all the souls who wish to be alive today.

please dont go.

if you go, a part of me

will die with you.