He's Not You
In the end,
You were bad for me.
You lied
You didn’t feel anything
I wasn’t the only one
I gave up.
We haven’t spoken
in six months
Haven’t kissed
for a whole year.
I should be happy.
Flashback to our first kiss
I went up to my room
and screamed to myself
Like in the movies.
When you first held my hand
And I was happy enough to explode.
Laying in your bed
Looking into your eyes
and just laughing.
Flashback to a beautiful starry night
When I looked up at you
And my heart opened
I knew I loved you
and I told you that you
were the most beautiful person
I’ve ever seen.
That’s still true.
Now, I have someone new.
My first relationship since.
He’s perfect
He brings me gifts
opens doors
tells me I’m beautiful
Always says good morning
and good night.
He kisses my forehead
my cheek
my neck
He’s compassionate
and I know he will never
destroy me
like you did.
But yet,
It feels flat.
I feel empty.
Even when you were bad
You were good
Because at least I was happy
Or I felt something at all.
What if no one
can make me feel like you did?
I’ll never again be so happy
So passionate
So intrigued.
I’ll spend my whole life
Faking relationships
trying to create someone
just like you.