"Hey"

With your arm around my shoulder

I felt the reds and yellows and peaches

Of a sunset you rode out on

All by yourself.

Can you tell that I hate it

When you pop up on my phone

Instead showing yourself

In the whites of my smile?

Optimism having faded,

The corners of my mouth were sunken ships

At the bottom of a sea of apologies.

Months without you dragged on

Like I imagine lonely stars do

Light years away from loved ones.

Fantasies about you grew worn,

Reused,

Unrealistic.

There is still red ribbon,

At least around me,

Winding and winding around us.

If I can’t find the scissors to cut them,

I’ll have to use my teeth.

They will just have to grow old and move away,

As far as the drive from nowhere to Boston.

Forgive me for welling in your eyes

And running down your cheeks,

I have surely forgiven you.

Physical distance is much worse

When it is blotted,

Inlegible,

Splintered with water webs

Of aqueous solutions

I sincerely hope

That you are rebuilding

Your nest of sunlight,

I just don't want to know

All the excruciating pins

You had to pull out of caramel skin

In order to finally build one.

I'll still wear the things you left me

Like i'll wear tattoos

Of scratches against my brain

Of my own making.

Thank you for teaching me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you for never being

On the same page.

Thank you for making no sense

Thank you for making me feel

Like the embodiment of a quote

The air hasn’t had a chance to carry.

When a mirror displays

Every scar that you and I

put there together,

All of them visible

In the jagged green of my eyes,

I'll remember everything.

And I hope I’ll be ok.