hidden hate

I always wondered who you were

I always wondered why 

Lost and confused 

I was more than Hurt

nearly abused, dark and veiny scars through my shirt

Aching in my bones and shattering of my heart

you were gone, you were missing

an unfamilar face, a mask

there was nothing I could remember to begin reminiscing 

nothing more than misguided, a myth of my future and 

non-existent in my past

didnt care for me , your child 

healing was never worth my while

the pain grew 

it took over me , controling my life

all he cared about was his new wife

to cut all the ties, my heart ached for you

there was nothing left i could do

but accept you for you, the man who left 

and had no regrets 

My father