Hidden Love

Back when

We were walking 'round the campus,

Too afraid of even holding hands,

Not too sure of where we'd stand.

I knew

Someday I'd probably wanna marry you.

Someday we'd kiss and love and live unto

death do us part.

But instead

I never said a word, not a syllable nor sigh.

I never gave you a real reason to try.

Never thought in my deepest dreams you'd care the same,

then I think you did, but we never said a thing.

Is a hidden love really love at all?

Or is it just pretend?

How did we get here?

Didn't want you to see the trauma

I was burying deep inside.

Didn't want to hurt you any more than I

already had but never apologized.

Not even that I didn't want to,

just didn't know what to say.

Then before I realized it,

all the words were just too late.

How do

We move on, come back from this, or do

anything to heal and grow or change into

who we could be together now.

Do you

even still want me, want us, or want to

make this right or hear what I've been holding to

for all this time?

But now I

moved on, am with someone else, and left you behind.

Hidden deep inside my heart, I don't why

I can't let you go, you're still holding on

to my heart.

And you don't even know.

Is a hidden love really love at all?

Or is it just pretend?

Can we find a way to come back from this,

or at least make amends?

Do you still care or have any interest

in me?

Or have you moved on completely?

Now, I

really have no words left to say.

Well I do, but it's all wayyy too late

to even try to ask.

But I

still hope you're moving on and finding that

girl you deserve, who treats you like the way

I should've done back then.

Is a hidden love really love at all?

Or is it just pretend?

Too late to confess how I truly feel,

but to you, I wish the best.