To My Beloved Chris, Something about you makes my heart race That's why I don't want this to go fast-pace You are on my mind all day, During all hours of sleep, work, and play If you don't want this anymore I'd understand, But please let me tell you how I feel when you take my hand: My stomach does a thousand flips I get a slight tingling between my hips. As strange as this may sound, My favorite time of day is when you're around. When you're away my heart longs for you And I begin to feel blue. Then you appear, And I let go of my fear. I am whole again Because I am with my best friend Someone I could see myself loving Someone I want to be constantly hugging. I have been heart broken before But none like the feeling I'd get if you walked out the door Your eyes see into me From all doubts and insecurities I am free For once I was one to turn to the blade Those memories will eventually fade. I no longer need to express my anger that way Just know that I trust you with everything I say I have been screwed over so many times I have been the victim of countless crimes You must realize how difficult this is for me- Shoving my past in a bottle and pitching it out to sea. I want that part of me gone But it's been around for so long Every day is a struggle All these problems are just too difficult to juggle You may not know it But that chapter of my book you lit now the ashes will rise And be forever lost in our colorful skies You gave me a reason to stay healthy And a reason to fix- me! I don't want you to see the Carlee I WAS ever again One who would constantly sin Who I am now is who I will stay And you help me every day You've assisted me in my journey to find myself The old me has been placed on a shelf You must have put a spell on me Because by you is where I long to be So this is how you make me feel These feelings are from my heart and oh, so real there's nowhere I'd rsther be than with you This thing we have is true It's real These are just a fraction of the ways you make me feel My dear beloved Chris, Is it too much to ask for a kiss?