Hoetry

I’m not a rapper but I know how to rhyme

Sick beats, crazy notes, all done in syncopated time

But these words I have to say need no music or sound

It’s about time to break the silence and say in out loud

My body is numb and my heart aches to think

Something I did for pleasure, out here being a freak

Caused me to live with something I will never overcome

No idea where I got it, too many dicks to just pick one

My modus operandi was having sex with lots of men

Last time I counted, I reached a hundred and ten

White, black, red, yellow, brown, didn’t matter to me

It was easy for anyone to get up in this pussy

See I was a hoe, the kind that didn’t get paid

I was willing to lay down with anyone who wanted to get laid

Fucking for sport, praying to somehow forget

How much I hated being alone, even if it led to regrets

I didn’t want to use protection, I liked to feel that skin

Anyone who wanted a piece of me could freely jump right in

Sometimes I cried during those unmemorable acts

Only time I felt truly comfortable, I was on my back

Giving up those skins, a piece of ass, a bit of trim

Sucking dicks, taking it up the ass, I’d do anything for “him”

He could be anyone, it didn’t matter too much to me

In those tragic physical moments, someone wanted me

So here I sit today, with a permanent condition

Not some virus I contracted, but the sin of omission

I forgot to love my self-enough to take care of my heart

But now I’m turning the page, I have a fresh new start

Loving me is no longer an option but a must

I’m no longer looking at myself with hatred and disgust.

I am a woman who has something to give to the world

I can no longer hide behind that broken, abused little girl

I need to be me now, not trying to be anyone’s wife

The hoe I used to be has now taken back her own life.