Hole

I once had love in my heart but now all that's there is a black hole that sucks up every emotion I have and instead of it being a bright star it is nothing but blackness some say that isn't right and some say you are only capable of having love in your heart but I don't have love in my heart all I have is pain and sarrow you put it there but yet I cant let you go no matter how much pain you've caused me no matter what I have done to try and forget you are always there and trust me when I say I would love it if you could just go away but yet you wont and cant get out of my life your like the ocean and I just want to dive in but I cant for there is no life guard to make sure I am safe and make sure I don't drown or get crushed by the waves I want to go out and dive deep its not like I'm not already crushed with the pressures the sea puts on me your just adding to the weight but yet there's a part of me that always stays and stops and waits wanting to fix this and knows there is a small like chance that I could fix and get what we had my heart over weighing my head and my stomach twirling and fluttering with every thought and that's not happiness for its the brain trying to get through and saying this could get us killed my heart could be gone and I could be left in pieces but yet.... I already am I am already what was once a mirror were you could see the beauty with in but now I am cracked and what is left is just little bits of what once was a little girl who would put on a Batman cape and call her self superman with a yellow bow in her hair and bright red boots on her feet and was confident and called herself pretty but now all I see is a girl who looks into a little tiny part of this mirror and can make out any flaw on her face because people think she is a disgrace and if she cant find that flaw first before anyone in this room then she will lose another part of this mirror that shows her... its not your fault I love you and its not your fault I am shattered you just added to the damage... and now this mirror sea person heart brain is going to be gone and out of your life for good because you said the words that have cracked me for good... I don't like her anymore