Hollow

Hollow. I feel hollow. Or, or maybe I feel hurt. No it's hollow, I feel nothing ever since that night Ever since that night, one, two three four fifth night. I'm speechless, I can't talk about these things that have happened to me without wanting to blame myself. Funny thing is my best friend blamed me. And I never even got the word out because I'm.. WEAK. Funny how the word weak's denotation doesn't fit a description of a teenage mind's connotation. I can't trust anything but the feeling of a good secure.... No not a hug I don't want to feel comfort in the arms of someone who may or may not destroy a 17 year old mind. I destroyed you because I love you. You've become addicted to the words I love you because of what love is supposed to mean. Maybe now addicted to the person he wanted you to be. After all, I did it because I love you. How do you trust when they all seem to start the same or is it me? Do I not know how to tell? Am I broken ? Maybe I don't feel anything anymore. I'm so. YOUNG. WEAK. NOTHING. I can't tell anymore. Where did I lose me ? Why did I pretend to believe the words: I'm sorry. But wait..I thought you loved me?