I guess the reason I am the way I am

is that from a very young age

my vision of the world was

cracked

from sleepless nights 

until dawnless

mornings.

I tasted my first sip of alcohol at a very

young age.

I was 12 the first time I willingly

got drunk.

I smoked my first bowls at the

ripe time of 8th

grade winter break.

I had unprotected sex when I was

only 15.

He came

on my

dress

and 

said

"I don't use condoms".

From then on I was uplifted.