Hope

Beloved L.M.V, You. My first and only wish is always you. From blowing candles on my birthday cake to wishing upon the stars... Its always you. Guitars, rip jeans, and true love are things my eyes can't see without your smile coming to mind. Oh boy that smile. The most beautiful smile my eyes can see is own by the one person my heart misses the most. You walked away from the middle of your story. Possibly our story. My life was left living with two haunting words: "What if". What if people wouldn't shame someone for wearing the same ripped jeans everyday? What if people would understand that it's okay to be different? What if you wouldn't have given up? What if I wouldn't have been blinded? What if I would have realized you were in need of a smile? What if you and I would have let aside the fear and would have given our love a chance? Would you still be here? But what if... What if I would have been able to save your life? How will my life be now? Definelty very different than it is now. My heart wouldn't be feeling this pain. That one piece in my heart will forever be missing. It will never be complete. But I promise you, I promise you there will be less and less people who will go through that pain of feeling hopeless. I promise you I will not fail again at realizing when someone is in need of help- of hope. I will be there and help people see hope in life. For them to understand their worth. To see light in the darkness. I will be by their side the way I wish I could have been by yours. I will not let them 'let go' just the same way I will never let you go. Truly misses you, Fey Zaragoza