Hope

Writing in a journal is effective in some aspects. But the one that it lacks in is the feeling of what you're writing down is significant. If there isnt anyone actually there to listen to what you have to say. Then is everything you've written down in a sense meaningless? Sharing the things you think of. The things that you find really interesting or the things that you just want to talk about cant possibly have any meaning to anyone but yourself if you dont discuss it with anyone. Right? Am I the only one that thinks that? Then again how could I know if no one else is reading the entries I have. I am in a sense cutting myself off from society by writing everything down in the confines of this journal. No one is listening, no one is reading, no one is watching. Its just me... then again how am I expected to put all of this out there if no one would want to listen? It's not just the lack of effort of trying to reach out to everyone, but perhaps the lack of motivation that everyone has in listening to what I have to say. I feel as though whenever I want to discuss topics I have on a daily basis there isnt anyone out there that has the same level of interest in the topic to actually engage in the conversation that I want to have. That's why i think it would be better to have it all written down in a journal. Maybe one day if I ever find that one person who wishes to discuss these things with me, who finds these things as fascinating as I do. We can look back at these entries together. And just talk, keeping these things written is a sense of hope for the future. Its symbolism for my expectations of a better future.