Hope of a Home; All I need

Everyone thinking you are a freak

Walking around with no friends

Hearing endless amounts of voices in your head

Wondering how long until you go completely insane

Finding no joy in this new place you have stumbled upon

Wanting to run back to where you came from

Never feeling safe, even in your own home

Traveling for miles upon miles to visit the people you’re closest to.

Not getting involved with anybody here

Scared of change

Evolving new social anxiety that had never occurred

Until you moved here

The place that took you away from your friends

Away from your family

Away from the lifestyle that you’ve always loved

Parents say “soon enough you’ll get used to it”

But we all know

That’s never the case

You struggle to find hope

To find joy in everything you do

School doesn’t help

Teachers calling you out

“Tell us a little about yourself”

Tears stream down your face from fear

Fear of being laughed at

Fear of being called a loser and a dork

A jerk and a freak

Nobody calling you a friend

Sitting at your home alone until

You can’t take anymore

You stare in the mirror wondering why

Why you got taken from your perfectly happy life

Taken from the school you loved

Taken from your house

Taken from the life that you loved

All you have to do is hope

Hope to be taken back

Back to the place you have loved

Maybe you can feel loved here

Here in the place you live now

In this new place called home

But it is not home

Because home is where the heart is

And your heart is back where you used to live

I cannot live without a home

I cannot live without hope

I never have

I never will