Hopeless

All this time I was fooling myself that I can. It was a damn idea to think that everything gone to be alright and be positive whatever the circumstances. Since then I thought when I do it with gladness and bigheartedly, the result will be favorable. But I was wrong! It was unpleasant and distasteful. Often times, self-motivation is my primary source of energy to exert force. Unfortunately, I lost my 'self-motivation' it was snatched out from my hands. Well, who cares?? No one cares! No one will listen. No one will ever understand. No one. There is no one!! I'm not here to ask you to sympathize with me. I am here to say that I feel offended and hurt. It was concealed. Even a little sacrifices will not work for those people who do not want to be lifted up. And now, I am drowning too. They dragging me down. I am eagerly to soar high as an eagle flying but one gunman shoot me to die. A sudden fall out of the sky and never ever to believe that flying in the sky is safe and delightful.