How?

How do you pray when you haven't done it in a while? How do you laugh when you don't even want to smile? How do you hide the pain when it's so easy for you to see? How do you talk to others when you can't even talk to the person you call "me"? How do you forget and forgive? How do you find a life to relive? How do you leave the past behind you? How do you forget everything you've been through? How do you for give yourself for forgiving? And how do you not forgive yourself for not forgetting?