how can i

running, always running.

hidding from this thing that wormed its way inside.

i cant keep doing this.

running, hiding, screaming.

its all a mess.

i dont know where to go

who to be,

what to be.

i am tired of being scared.

scared of you,

of pain you bring.

how do i deal with this secret

the secret you gave me.

i am so over taken by the fear

that i cant feel my own body.

i am no longer sure i am even in it.

how do i know you wont hurt

that you wont kill whats left.

how can i?

RAT