how i feel deep inside

How i feel deep inside is dead not feeling anything at all but empyness and sorrowness not being able to heard or seen feeling like a hollow shell on the inside ready to break and fall apart into little pieces. feeling dead on the inside not wanting to wake up to see the day of light just staying in the dark crying my eyes out in pain and suffering because of the things that runs through my mind and the things that happend to me in the past that i cant let go of and it weighs me down. and it hurts me really bad to a point where i suffer from depression and anixety. the bad memories keep hunting me and i just want to end everything where i want to break free and be happy. but instead im being crushed by my own meories they wont let go someday i hope to move on from things and change for the better.