How I'm Feeling Now

I feel two ways about my existence. 

One being that I'm glad I got to participate in this world, happy of all the experiences I've gained.

The other simply wishing I was never conscious or self aware in the first place. 

Through my observation over the years I've come to see many things.

All of it is very elaborate. I won't go into detail. This is just a summarization of my conclusion so far.