How Much You Ment to Me

I meet you in track, You were a long jumper and I was long distance runner. You know what, I had fallen in love with your dorky laugh and smile. However you are younger than me, I was a high school senior and you were an 8th grader. I had fallen in love with a child, Is it wrong to love a child? It did not felt wrong. I later found out that you were in love with me, Even after finding out I was four years older than you, You stilled loved me. April 29, mark the day I became your girlfriend, You hand me a rose that you cop out of the school. Well actually our friends did. You were so embarrassed to say, “Will you be my girlfriend,” I was you happy, but then I realize I had made a mistake. It has been almost two month since my last break up, That day I told myself, if anything were to happen, It would be have been my fault. If only I let it go, If only I haven’t lost you, If I left the past be the past you could have stayed. It has been two years since you left, And each day, there will me something that remind me of you. I still remember our first kiss, It felt strange but your kisses were like a drug, so addicting. Why am I a fool to still continue to wait for you? Why don’t you just get out my head, and my heart, If I continue to wait I will just end up getting hurt. I know you won’t come back, I know that we are not the same people we were when we first fell in love. But why do you continue to stay in head, in my heart. Am I still in love with you? Or do I just miss the memory of being love and being embraced? Sometime I wish you were still beside me, Sometimes I wish you knew how much you meant to me.