Hurricane

Somehow I’ve gotten lost

In the hollow body I inhabit 

I never thought about the cost

Of such a deadly habit

But now I am trapped

In the hollowness I’ve built

Thoughts inside my head overlapped

Consumed by guilt

I’ve wrapped my heart in ice 

And that chilled me down to my bones

Wouldn’t it be nice

If everyone wasn’t walking around like clones

Enraptured in the melancholy whispers

Of their daily lives

I’m trapped in an endless winter

Just looking through the archives

Parts of me splintered 

As I watched you walk away 

It is because of you that I am this hollow body

Trapped in disarray

All my thoughts so bawdy

I’m broken beyond repair

Built walls around my heart and mind

Hoping to distance myself from despair

Trying to leave behind

What you did to me is crippling 

How long it’s been 

Since I felt your fingers scribbling 

Terrible things upon my skin

I still cannot forget the itch they left 

Just beneath the surface

From where you wrest 

Leaving me feeling amorphous

Hollow and empty 

Clinging to the strings holding my mind together 

You claimed to be a cognoscenti 

But you left me to weather 

The storm you left inside my soul

Is a hurricane inside me 

Tearing me apart from the inside out

My soul is desperate to flee

As it begins to swing about

You told me I was once your finest art

Which you molded to be perfect 

But I broke apart 

Trying to deal with the after effect 

Of my mental anguish 

Every fiber of me ached as I did it

Begging for me to just vanish 

Every word you said was counterfeit

The things you did took away my innocence 

You left me with nothing

But a soul full of bitterness

Feeling as if I was disgusting 

I felt so hopeless

But then came someone

And even though I was soulless 

One by one

They melted the ice I’d built around my heart

And carried me away 

To try for a new start