Hurt

As I sit here I think why am I here how did I get to this point I'm broken I'm torn The worst part is you say you love me but where are you I chased you away for over half the day yelling after yelling I'm done with it all your voice becomes an echo in my head I'm trying to leave the void but I can't it's everywhere I turn I don't know what your doing although I trust you I'm just hurting I need you but where are you. I'm the jealous type who needs to know not everything but the basics so I don't sit on the fence unaware of what's what deep down I know you deserve better but one like from a female who hits like in a moment things aren't right what am I supposed to think. You see all this pain is built up hurt an anger from 2 years. I feel lost I don't know who I am anymore as I feel my blood boil an rise with anger it comes from feeling like a burden