“Hurt all over again”

I’m hurt all over again It’s not the same as before though at the time I had never realized who my real friends were, at least now I’m aware I bet she never knew me as much as I knew almost everything about her. I think God sent it as a sign even though I wish it wasn't I don’t believe that she wanted to leave because if our friendship was real, we would feel the same things equally. I don’t get why, why she would want to leave. Maybe it’s always just been me since friendships don’t always last, I wish this one did since it was most important to me then.