Hurt and Bewildered

Hurt and bewildered.

Are what I felt,

When I found out about your existence.

Hurt and bewildered,

Are what I felt,

When my ‘father’ died

When I was 12 years old.

Hurt and bewildered,

Are what I felt,

When I learned,

He was not my real father.

Hurt and bewildered,

Are what I felt,

When I learned,

I do not know

Who my real father is.

Hurt and bewildered,

Are what I felt,

When you sent

A stack of birthday cards

On my eighteenth birthday.

Hurt and bewildered,

Are what I felt,

When I realized

Everyone knew

Except me.