HUSH
BEFORE YOU READ THIS PEOM INVOLVES RAPE
Look down
Keep your phone out
"Take" a call
That way he won't go after you.
Don't look
Don't smile
Don't laugh
Don't crack a joke
Don't enjoy yourself
Because that's consent, right?
If he is your boyfriend, that's consent, right?
Oh you have anxiety
Oh you have depression
Oh you have a dissociation disorder
That means you're faking it, right?
You are scared as you feel him on you, you close your eyes, hoping, praying that someone will save you.
No one comes.
You black out.
Oh my god You blacked out!
Yes, I did cause I couldn't handle it.
Someone else is in control!
Wait, what?!
What's going on
Where am I
What happened
*gasp and cover mouth*
I remember
I remember his hands on me
Taking my clothes off
"I love you baby"
"I'll never hurt you baby"
"You're ok with this right baby?"
Silence
Because you don't know what to do.
If you agree. It's your fault.
If you don't. It's still your fault
See the victim always asks for it, right?
Because of those short skirts
Because of those tight shirts
Because you feel unconditional in a bra so you don't wear one
ITS YOUR FAULT FOR GETTING RAPED
I can still feel it.
He puts his hands around my neck
Yes he is smaller than me but yet he is stronger
I can't breathe!
"No one will know about this right baby?"
Baby
Baby
Baby
Why does he call me that?
A baby.
Something you care for and look after.
Something you love with all your heart.
Not something you force yourself onto.
See we would dream of a perfect life
Perfect job
Perfect marriage
Perfect family
Is this perfect?
Is this what I want?
I see girls, younger than I was, on the news
"He used me. He made me feel worthless"
I understand them. Cause it happened to me. Yet no one does anything. I mean why would they.
A white man wouldn't rape a little girl, right?
No. The victims are faking it.
So is this America? Where the rapist gets away and the victims are the ones that are punished?
If so...
I will go...