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i was never as strong as Them
She fought a long battle, where i could only last for a short time
He was brave and accepted treatment, i did not
They died with dignity as i hid in my room
silently sobbing
weak
fragile
afraid
but never could i be as strong as Her
and never could i be as fearless as Him
my battle was in my mind
Theirs was in Their body
pain never stopped Them
me on the other hand, i could not bear it 
the sadness never faded
and always brought me down
and sometimes i wonder 
why that curse took over Their body
is that why they had to go
i miss them every day
sometimes wondering if i am the reason
there is constant tension
and sometimes i wonder what it would be like
if they were still here

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