I Am

When I was six

I was afraid of backhanded hits

And words that cut like knives

I was terrified

When I was nine

I was alone most of the time

I wanted a friend

But I went on solo

When I was twelve

I wanted to start fresh

I made a friend

The best one I have ever had

When I was fourteen

I couldn't look in the mirror

I was depressed, sad, lost

And no one could hear my cries for help

Later that year

I was a target

Sexually assaulted

Still no one would here until months later

The batle was fought hard

But in the end even though we won

It felt like we lost

I struggled with the fear

And the pain

Wanting it all to go away

I tried and tried

Nothing seemed to work

I tried to end it all

But that didn't work

When I was fifteen

I started again

I devoted myself to music 

And made new friends

All seemed alright

Until a year later

I had sunk low again

The flash backs were hard

and I was feeling week

Then a year later 

A "friend" put me and another in harms way

I opened myself up to them

This had been a mistake

As not too long later,

My words were tken and used against me

I wasn't okay

I wanted to die

But it was in the moment

I picked myself up

Brushed myself off

and from then on I knew

I Am Strong