I am...
People always ask, who are you?
My reply is simply, whose asking?
I am no category, I am no single word
You can’t define me with a dictionary
I am loud
I am quiet
I am a leader
I am a follower
I can knock you out
I can cry in my room for hours
I am a teeter totter of emotions and conflicts trying to escape
But I know my audience
I am an actor
And the whole worlds my stage
We all have our slot, Geek, Nerd, Athlete, Slut, Skater, Druggie, Popular, Cool, Gamer
I am me, why must I be defined?
I don’t fit in, I’m the square peg jammed in a circle hole
Too smart to be an athlete, too athletic to be a nerd, too shy to be popular, too outgoing to be a geek
I’ve got the worst of both worlds
I’ve got the best of my worlds
Still I carry on
I am caring
I am free
I am peaceful
I am violent
I am a melting pot of emotions and turmoil waiting to erupt
A walking oxymoron, a walking contradiction
I am an engineer
I am smart, analytical, dedicated, and like stability
I am a doctor
I am caring, sentimental, fierce, and love the chaos
I am more than a number, no GPA can capture who I am, no top 10% matters in life,
I’m a giver and a taker
I’m a lover and a fighter
My life is what I make of it
So I’m going to do what I do, and enjoy it
Instead of drowning in accolades and expectations
“You can’t be good at tests you’re an athlete!” they said
But I am
“You can’t be a varsity member of a sports team you are in the top 10% of scholars in your state” they call out
But I am
And I will continue to be
This walking contradiction
This walking oxymoron
But I am who I love,
And no one will change that
“You can’t be Catholic you listen to heavy metal!” They scream
But why can’t I?
Why must people make stereotypes about me?
Why can’t people just accept me for who I am?
Just because I look a certain way, or dress a certain way doesn’t define me for my worth
People just don’t learn…
They make me try and fit in
They’ll call you names or make fun of you
But I am a variable
I am who I need to be for who needs me
I am caring for those that need me
I am a shoulder to cry on
I am a fist to knock out the person that made you cry
I am fired up and calm
I am determined and lazy
I am unexplainable and undefinable
After all, no two people on Earth are the same
Regardless of name
Regardless of race
Regardless of sexual orientation
A person is a person
And all that matters is what is on the inside
What makes you tick like a clock and get excited
Regardless of how stupid it seems to others
I am me and there is no one like me
Mom isn’t just saying I’m special because I’m her son
But because I’m a unique individual
Not even one in a million
Not one in a billion
Not one in 7.125 billion
But one in infinity
In all of time there will be no one quite like me
And my life will go down in the halls of history
And people will remember me
Because
I am…
Carter Matthew Brasel