As I am

    Dear God,
  I need a word, can you hear me?
If I write these words do you think 
       they will ever feel me?
I can't relate to love, 
I think it fears me.
Heart is outside my body, 
and love won't come near me.
I need a change. 
Have patience is what I'm hearing.
Breaking chains, 
complacency is dreary.
Clearing out the dust, so my 
mind can wonder dearly.
I need my vision opened up,
so I can see clearly.
Hopeless and broken, 
you healed me.
That exposed the real me.
I'm still getting used to the real me.
I want to build, 
buildings for my future children.
I promise they won't ever live through, 
things I had to deal with.
Scars come into light at night, 
I need healing.
Numb. 
What happened to my feelings?
Dear God,
I need a word, can you hear me?
If I write these words you
think 
they will ever feel me?