I am

Hi.

I am a Christian. 

I am the weird church girl, 

the Jesus lover, 

the one who dresses funny 

the one who doesn’t drink 

or smoke 

or have sex, 

the one who doesn’t cuss or coin OMG 

I am the Christian music listener 

the Bible study lover 

The one who leaves practice early just to praise God again 

And I am a sinner of the worst degree 

You see 

I go to church on Sundays because I NEED Jesus in the worst way 

And I go I again on Wednesdays because without the light of his word and the joy from the songs my heart would crumble from Sunday to Sunday 

I am broken 

I am selfish and a liar and jealous and struggle with how much is to much and how far is to far

I am wrong no matter how much I strive to be right 

 I am a person that gives in over and over again when the devil is pulling and smiling and teasing me 

I should say no but I don’t. 

I am desperate and complacent 

When my tears won’t stop and the guilt is to much 

I am overtaken and I am shameful

BUT I am not alone

You see 

I am one of Gods creations 

Made to be loved 

by reading his word, 

By knowing him, 

by loving him, 

by begging for forgiveness on my knees at night in my bed when nobody can hear my cries

By singing praises

By understanding that his grace is enough because he LOVES ME 

Not the me I want to be 

Not the me I should be 

But the ME I am NOW in this moment 

He meets me half way And carries me the rest 

So Hi. 

I am a Christian. 

Not because I am perfect

But because without God I am nothing