I Am

I am from words

I am from ink spilled across endless pages

I am fiction and fantasy

Romance and crime

I am from falling for imaginary characters

And unreasonably high standards

I am from Hogwarts and Panem 

From dog eared and tear stained pages

I am from fancy vibrant cover art

With intriguing titles

From beaches lapped by icy crystal waves

From a small town 

Where everyone knows everyone

I am from the land of the free and brave

From the golden state

I am from loving parents

And warm childhood memories

But as always there are two sides to a coin

I am also from depression and anxiety

From panic attacks that steal the breath from my lungs

And from scars I gave myself

From “your fine”

And “the world is not all about you”

From skipping meals

And the need to please

I am from being scared of the word no

From feeling too much and nothing at all

From tears at night to emotions being taken out on myself

I am from a story that is not yet done

I am me