I am

I am awesome

Like my mother

Like my grandmother

Like all the women and men who have come before me

Going through the days 

struggling and trying to keep their world together

Constantly told No

Constanly told "You're not capable of doing this or that.."

How about some positivity in my life?

I find myself awesome

Because....

After many moments

where I felt :

like giving up

like I never was good enough

Like I never fit the idealistic standard of a teenage girl

Like I never was normal because of scars

Like I never was a teenager because I had to grow up too fast

Like I never was the problem 

I finally feel awesome

Yeah I  go through things

I smile to hide the pain

I smile to make everyone who doubted me see that they're not stopping me

I smile for my family to see that I'm okay

But For once I smile for....

me 

For once I feel awesome

For once I feel beautiful

For once I feel happy to step outside my room

For once I shut the media off and tell myself 

"I am beautiful regardless of what they say"

For once I look at these scars and see

that I've come a long way

see I treated myself like I caused all the pain

I hated myself

I hated every detail about me 

I lost touch with everything

I lost

myself 

I didn't see that 

people go through things in life

so they can become stronger

Looking at the mirror

looking at the girl I became so unfamiliar with

I see that I am strong

I am capable

I came a long way

I am awesome

You are awesome 

We are all freaking awesome

And these negative things in life 

come and go

So please look at yourself

Smile

Laugh

Cry even

But notice 

You have this one life

one body

one face

one heart

one soul

learn to love it

you are beautiful

you can do so much more than what they say

you can be who you want to be

you can love whoever you want to love

And if you feel like no one else loves you

I love you

and I'm rooting for you

I am awesome

We are awesome

You are awesome

and no one can let us down.