I Am From

I am from sadness and depression.

From having to be watched

And from having someone love me,

Who I can't possibly deserve.

I am from getting what I want

Even after I lost their trust.

And feeling like crap

Every single day

Because I know I deserve it.

I am from trying to be a good person

But I am worse than I ever imagined.

I am from faking the emotion I show

And acting like I am okay

When I know,

I am about to break.

I am from everyone telling me

It just takes time,

I'm going to be okay.

I am from wandering when

That time will come.

I am from the hope

That one day I will feel happiness again.

But right now,

I am from the place

When I know,

It will not be

Okay.