I Am

I am...

I am strong

giving a shoulder to those in need going through pain but not letting you see me bleed but 

I am weak 

breaking down and crying all night flinching from my own shadow

from the dark 

not wanting to continue the fight

I am happy 

bringing joy and laughter 

not a care in the world 

in the life I'm living and

I am sad 

looking without seeing what's there giving into the cruel thoughts 

not wanting to care 

I am beautifully and wonderfully made but I am flawed and scarred 

I am the good and the bad 

I am a contradiction