I Am Afraid

Its been 1 year and 1 month being with you, being a boyfriend...

Do I love it?

Yes

Do I love you?

Fuck yes

Do you love me?

Yeah...you do

Are you beautiful?

Oh yeah

Are you always there for me? 

You always will be

Do you hate how I can't correctly use there and their? 

Yes, yes you do

Am I scared?

Yes...

Okay yeah, I am terrified because when I decided that when you were the one, 

The one I was going to be in a relationship with I did not think I was going to love you,

But when I did I decided that drinking at an age of 16 is not okay and promised you I would stop,

My anxiety left my body everytime your manly hands would touch my rough skin,

I found everything you did fucking hilarious yet tried not to laugh, 

I started to see how really annoying you were, 

I was fucking terrified, 

Why?

Cus I love you,

Yep,

I am cheesy, yes you hate that, 

I am grumpy, you think its so cute,

I have so much insecurities, yet you still call me cute,

I hated you, I still hate you, 

You are making me feel vulnerable, scared, and just confused, 

I'm scared I am going to hurt you, 

Or i'll be hurt, 

But its the best feeling ever, 

Because I love you, 

You're mine,

I'm yours,

So, let's do this, 

I'm ready,

3,

2,

1,

Ignite....