I am afraid

There is a void left When you are gone I am afraid that you will hurt me So I fight you off With harsh words I hit you hard The blows I give I leave the scars I take you to the limits Where one day When you have had it There won't be Space left in your heart To forgive me and embrace my broken parts Till then I will try And that's how I am programmed The fear of heartbreak Scares me the most And if I melt for a person I conciously make efforts to hurt them So The next time I approach The doors are shut closed It calms my mind to know No one's there to hurt me anymore